Hi Jaffa -
If your neighbors are real friends, they will understand if you say "hey guys, we need a couple of weekends to ourselves." I bet they will care much less than you think.
You used words like "suicidal" in your post. With this level of seriousness, why would you care what anyone thinks anyhow?
Be strong. It is worth it. But, you have to work an active program of recovery. For me, just not drinking was only the first step.