hey jaffa
Early recovery is a pretty full on time - I remember a lot of things set me off.
Maybe you need to talk to your husband and tell him some of what you've said here?
It sounds like he has very little idea of whats going on.
As for your neighbours - they obviously have no idea whats going on either, so does it really matter what they think?
Does it matter anyway whether they think you're a wowser or a b*itch?
You know whats right for you Jaffa - stick to it....but I have to say I found it really hard to give up drinking and not change anything else in my life.
My life always won and I went back to my old ways.
If you want to stay sober IMO I think change is pretty much mandatory - how you react to people, who you hang around, what you do with your time...
Its hard - but you're not alone
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