Hi everybody. I'm resurrecting this old thread to give you guys an update. Well, the sobriety went pretty well from October to April. About five and a half months. Then I had a relapse. It went on for about a week I guess, sneaking around and drinking, and culminated with me, you guessed it, making an a** of myself and blowing my cover, and my wife getting pretty mad.
Since then, I've recommitted to sobriety and haven't drunk since. About three months now.
I do feel like a lot of the appeal of drinking has evaporated, for me. In my case, I was always a shy person, and I liked alcohol because it helped me release my inhibitions. My new mantra, though, is "fear is your friend." A little social anxiety is a good thing. Drinking and being uninhibited is, for me, disastrous. Hanging back and staying in control feels good to me now.