New Here. 10 Days So Far.
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New Here. 10 Days So Far.
Hi everybody. I'm new here. So far, I have been alcohol-free for 10 days. Not sure if I am alcoholic or not, but I'm definitely not a normal drinker, and I feel that if I don't quit, I'm going to be in trouble. I am really not programmed for social drinking. What's the use if you can't get drunk? It's more like torture, for me.
Hope everyone will wish me luck in going the distance. What has really motivated me is shame and embarrassment. I tend to make an a** of myself when drunk. One time too many. Things I won't miss: that burning shame that makes you want to bury your face in the pillow the morning after you've pulled a serious drunk, and those godawful hangovers.
Well, just wanted to say hello. I really enjoy the forum. It's great to read all the messages from people trying to do the same thing I'm trying.
Hope everyone will wish me luck in going the distance. What has really motivated me is shame and embarrassment. I tend to make an a** of myself when drunk. One time too many. Things I won't miss: that burning shame that makes you want to bury your face in the pillow the morning after you've pulled a serious drunk, and those godawful hangovers.
Well, just wanted to say hello. I really enjoy the forum. It's great to read all the messages from people trying to do the same thing I'm trying.
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Congrats on the 10 days! Waking up the day after a terrible drunk and piecing together all of the embarrassing crap I did the night before was terrible. Especially when I looked through my outgoing text box....
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Yeah, these past 10 days, every morning when I wake up, I think about how good I feel, how my body doesn't have that sick hangover feeling. In my 20s, especially early 20s, the hangovers were not so bad, but after age 30, they got really bad.
This is the first time I have truly wanted to quit permanently. Now I know what they mean when they say "you have to want to quit." Before, I would sometimes try to quit for a month or so, with varying degrees of success, but I wasn't really picturing it as a permanent thing. It's a big difference.
This is the first time I have truly wanted to quit permanently. Now I know what they mean when they say "you have to want to quit." Before, I would sometimes try to quit for a month or so, with varying degrees of success, but I wasn't really picturing it as a permanent thing. It's a big difference.
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Hi everybody. I'm resurrecting this old thread to give you guys an update. Well, the sobriety went pretty well from October to April. About five and a half months. Then I had a relapse. It went on for about a week I guess, sneaking around and drinking, and culminated with me, you guessed it, making an a** of myself and blowing my cover, and my wife getting pretty mad.
Since then, I've recommitted to sobriety and haven't drunk since. About three months now.
I do feel like a lot of the appeal of drinking has evaporated, for me. In my case, I was always a shy person, and I liked alcohol because it helped me release my inhibitions. My new mantra, though, is "fear is your friend." A little social anxiety is a good thing. Drinking and being uninhibited is, for me, disastrous. Hanging back and staying in control feels good to me now.
Since then, I've recommitted to sobriety and haven't drunk since. About three months now.
I do feel like a lot of the appeal of drinking has evaporated, for me. In my case, I was always a shy person, and I liked alcohol because it helped me release my inhibitions. My new mantra, though, is "fear is your friend." A little social anxiety is a good thing. Drinking and being uninhibited is, for me, disastrous. Hanging back and staying in control feels good to me now.
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