Thanks, I was able to calm down last night. It was helpful just to post here and know that someone would care and respond. I hear your suggestions and am trying to implement them. I know that I a reacting instead of acting. I will try to change this. I was not able to call anyone last night from my alanon group. I am going to the meeting today even though I have to leave early for another meeting. I will tell the people about my fear of calling and see if admiting that helps any. I will also try to agree to call certain people. Then maybe I can schedule a call to get the first one over with. This all sounds silly, but when I a very upset I feel afraid of making a call.
Thanks again for being there and for caring. I know I can make it.