Thanks all, I had a really good talk with my counselor today. I am employing a new method (SMART Recovery). I have 2 sweet doggies at my home today! I love animals and this and a bit of reading will make a very pleasant evening. I think I got it all out of my system. I wouldn't advise it, but inebriation can open one up to new perspectives. So I learned something. Now, I just have to run with it.