Slowly dying...
I am very sorry to bothrer you,
I am a 39 year old guy who started drinking at age 25. My father is an alcoholic and I vowed to never become like he was. Genetics........... I have attended a very prestigious university and am a professional in my field of work. Have to admit I am a failure at trying to stop drinking alcohol. For 15 years now, I have tried to stop with my "intellect". No success.
Sorry about my writing. I am drinking as of now but WANT so much to quit. I am not having fun. I drink alone. I have a girlfriend who I love dearly. I have never cheated on her. She does not know about my problem.
I have been to AA for about 6 years. I was able to stop for a year and became a popular figure as a guest speaker. It got to my head. I am a loner remember? I relapsed.
When the craving comes up , I become powerless.
I am writing the following but I believe alcohol will have the better of me.
I am slowly dying. I cannot take it anymore