hey LiveLikeGold6,
I was wondering if you would mind expanding those "few weeks" prior to drinking a little bit more. I'm early in recovery & would appreciate any patterns that started to take place, for example: not attending as many meetings, not calling the sponsor etc. or if it was really just an in the moment snap of the finger decision.
All the words I have to offer are,
If I chose to drink I know it would affect my spiritual relationship, because once I have one, that turns into a few, it's impossible for me to hear that still small voice & then I'm left with the chaos that is my mind & actions that manifest from chaotic thoughts. This is why I can not drink. I can not hinder that lifeline.
The journey is life & I wish you well in yours. I need & want to be sober to experience mine, or it'd slip away faster than it already is.