Originally Posted by
almay777 
I am struggling because all I want to do is feel normal again. I was drinking so much for so long I am not sure I can even remember what normal is. My eyes are so dull I feel depressed every time I look in the mirrior and see what i have done to myself. Does this ever go? When I was drinking I didnt care. But now I do care and want to get better. Just praying I can get through the weekend without picking up a drink.
I never thought I'd ever sleep again for longer than three hours max. for more then eight years getting drunk every night and it took me a torturous four weeks but I say grace now because I do sleep. I still look like crap and I know I've got a long way to go but I'll be damned if I go back to not sleeping again. Trust me, when I first stopped drinking I was the one writing here about the agony but they are right; It does get better.
Keep it, up be gentle on yourself and i.t. w.i.l.l. g.e.t. b.e.t.t.e.r.