Stay strong Almay. Remember why you wanted to stop drinking. Remember how you felt every morning.
There is a certain time of day, each day, when I feel like someone is scratching a cheese grater down my face. That's how much I want to drink. For those 15 minutes I nearly forget why I wanted to start this whole sobriety thing. I want to say f*** it and go buy booze.
It's at this moment you have to "play the tape to the end" as they say. I don't know about you but I couldn't even look myself in the mirror for the past year because I looked so wretched. That's what I hear when I play my tape to the end. What is at the end of your tape?
You are having a down moment right now and I am so glad you are reaching out here. I've had a hard time believing it myself that it gets better, even spoken from the people who know that it does from experience. But let's trust them and see for ourselves.
Please check in tomorrow and tell us how you're doing.