Welcome Steve! Glad you found us and joined the family.
It does feel good to tell someone about your addiction problem. I tried to hide my alcoholism but the only person fooled by my lies was
me...
Why don't you give AA a good try? Call that number CarolD gave you and go to some meetings. It's not the only way to get and stay sober but there is a lot of experience, support, and hope in those rooms and it's nice to have sober friends who understand what you're going thru.
I'm glad you joined us, we're stronger together.