Thank you everyone. I had my bestfriend pick me up after work we went to a local pub and had a couple of glasses of wine. I am still so heartbroken. I cannot stop grieving and crying. I am so sad. But, I know what I have to do. I just don't understand why it felt so much like the perfect relationship that I have been praying for. And then just slapped in the face, like I am a stuipd fool. I am a good person. I give, and I give. I am hurting. Why do I have to suffer, I did nothing wrong, but love someone????