I used your teminology Wilson but yeah I meant every time I tried to taper my alcohol intake off, it never worked (same goes for moderating my intake too anyway).
As for potential...I always considered myself highly functioning too...until the end, when I wasn't and I didn't care....
But even comparing myself now to my 'best' then? I'm a better worker, I'm a better partner, I'm a better citizen, I'm a better friend, I'm a better musician, I'm healthier....I'm just a better man.
Why wouldn't anyone want to go for that?
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