Good for you mentallyexh! I'm in the same boat with you. I kind of bumped along the bottom for a while but lately I've decided that the rest of my life is not going to be determine by anyone but me. His alcoholism has lost it's control over me. I've been doing lots of reading and trying to work on my recovery and I feel like I've got my soul back. Once I started it kind of snowballed uphill.