i don't use AA, i've never attended a meeting...the only things i know about the groups are what I've read here, and at this point from what I've read, i'm convinced it would not be a good fit for me.
I'm accountable to myself and I want to change my life...things are not perfect, but for the most part i've been successful and sober, less depressed and thinking logically instead of feeling over reactive and panicky. I like the mornings now, i don't feel terrible, I tried to change my routine to include other options besides drinking.
I recently adopted a little dog which I think makes me more responsible, because he needs care and the exercise is good for both of us.
I have a lot of pressures in my life with elderly parent care and a recent break-up, they are not pleasant, but if I was drinking it would be 10X worse.