It is a catch 22 as I am functional, drink a lot but control it so I can function (but as a friend said drinks in the morning are not normal) but when I am controling it I feel good so don't really have the desire to stop, It's only after serious binges when I feel the guilt and desire not to drink but trying to quit those times is hard and I know a just a drink will make me feel better, It doesn't set me on to a binge just heavy controlled drinking to function.