so far, so good, not stressing or even really thinking about it. and when it crossed my mind, I just said "i am not doing that anymore". amazing!
I don't know what's different, I prayed a little, tho that's not me,it was the "I don't know if you are there, but I need help" kinda prayer. whatever works, right?
Gonna keep reading and posting here, been a lurker forever, a long ago one time poster, but the support here is really helpful. Thanks to all, hope I can help someone too.