I have a job. Child support - not so much. The state is involved in that one but the wheels roll slowly. I'm not really looking to define myself by a man. I'm just lonely. To quote a movie "I think if you put my heart up to your ear, you could hear the ocean."
I love my kids a lot. A LOT. But lets face it, it is just not the same as an adult. I need more. I want love. The kind that brings you a washcloth when you are feeling sick. One that calls home at lunch to see how you are doing. Who cuddles with you when you are falling asleep. I want someone I can do those things for as well. I feel like a fly, banging against a clear window, trying to get out. I can see what out is, I just can't get there.