Things have improved a bit for me on the "make yourself better" front a bit - I've been keeping my hair dyed like I should, taking care of my skin, been keeping my house clean. I just get mad about things sometimes, ya know? I do a lot of things that are good - don't drink, don't smoke, don't gossip, don't lie. Do honest work no matter where I've worked or what I am given to do.
What more is there for me? Other people just seem to know - they just do stuff and it all comes together. Maybe it is because they figure out what they want and then figure out how to get it. Like many of us here at SR, I grew up in a really bad house and have always been in survival mode. I'm getting to the point where I want to do more than just survive - I want to thrive. Soar. LIVE.
My heart is so full of dreams and hopes and I water them every day but they need some sun. I can imagine so much, and its killing me that I can't/don't have it.