Wow, lots of verbage here, much of it circulates around money, money is quite a motorvator, many believe that money alone can make everything right. It cannot, I personally, have been up, been down, been over and out. One thing I've learned is that I must take care of me, anything anyone else has to offer is just icing on the cake, that's it.
You stated that you are still hoping for a relationship with him...why? He is done, accept it.
Time to stop the what if's, focus on how to make your life better, how to heal,how to move on, he has.