I have to agree with Smacked, my twisted mind would love to think that I'm just a problem drinker, heavy drinker or any of the "other than an alcoholic" labels that drunks are defined by so that I could have hope that I could cut back and drink like a normal person... bottom line is I don't, haven't ever and won't drink normally because that's simply something I'm incapable of. Lord knows I've tried so many times.
Time to quit analyzing it and move on... at least for me anyway.
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