Hi and Welcome,
I'm glad you are seeking support.
I think it's reasonable to hope that your boyfriend will act a certain way, but it's really not in your control. One of the painful and difficult things I had to learn in early recovery, was that the only thing I had control of, was myself. I made many changes in my life at that time, because my perspective in sobriety was different that when I was drinking.
There is always lots of support here, so you can log on anytime of the day or night to find someone to talk to.