gmc

So, I know he was locking himself up in hotel rooms to get drunk and wasted. He was leaving work to do this. A few times, while traveling he got wasted, did drugs, and used an escort service. I have all the telephone bills (yes, I have gone through them over and over again).

I cannot imagine his frame of mind in all this. My goodness, he wanted me to go to his friends / family days at his outpatient program so bad and I was so indifferent to his recovery! I wanted him to handle it and be done with it. I thought I would concentrate on my daughter and leave him to his own. I had no idea it was that bad all that time.

I'm just so shocked, confused, angry, hurt - mylanta, I also feel bad for him. He mustve been so miserable - oh hell, not while he was using, huh?! Thank goodness for this space and time. Thank goodness he is not in front of my face, I dont know if I would cry, hug him, hit him or throw something at him.

gmc