skope - I'm sorry you are not good at the moment. I hope things will get better for you. I'm still struck by how our ABF's both say exactly the same thing - mine let me down yesterday and I am so angry and fed up with him. He hasn't been that drunk for ages and I was able to deal with it a lot better by telling him I was angry and leaving the situation alone. I'm very angry today still and he's feelign guilty and ill and humble, promising the same old crap. I thought he was gettign somewhere but it's right back to the beginning again.
I hope that if you've decided to leave the relationship that you will get some help for you and stick to your decision. I wish you all the best. Stay strong.