I understand we never had it, but we spoke of it all the time. And it wouldnt even be me who would bring it up all the time. So I'm sure he must've shared that fantasy with me? Maybe not, or maybe he desp wanted to feel it, but couldn't really.
He;s bn in touch again, saying he's free to chat. I haven't replied.. perhaps I should hear him out.. but i dont have the energy for this.. I just need food and sleep right now. I don't want to cry anymore.