1 is too many 1000000000 never enough. When you get to 10000000 are you really going to say enough?
With booze I was only ever as happy as how many more beers I had left. Even if I had drank 18 beers then if I only had a couple left then I would be feeling really depressed and p*ssed-off and plotting to go buy more. If I had another 10 left then I would be OK and at relative ease in my drunken world.
I was never content and at a plateu whils't on alcohol. Only ever content whilst continuously pouring more down my neck. Literally would have a drink in my hand and be constantly drinking for hours and hours. Then waking up not remembering what the hell happened and reaching for another beer.
If I never take the first drink then I ain't in the game.