Great post. I turn 32 in x11 days. I've got a nice house, great g/f, etc. However, I've underachieved in my career and pissed away tens of thousands of dollars over the past 10 years using alcohol.
I've only got x4 sober days in right now but throughout the day I do wonder what life would have been like if I wasn't an alcoholic. I remember my first drink and I was like-"where have you been all my life?" Booze did work for me in a sense for a lot of years but now as I face liver failure and other health problems I've realized at the end of the day I've just mortgaged my body.
I need to stay sober now to live and asked whether I would choose to repeat the last x10 years of my life my only response would be
"What choice?" - I was born and bred an alcoholic and that's what's formed my life. Having said that, I wish things had turned out differently