I see what you are saying now, but I'll have to disagree with you that my life is currently a wreck. Most remarkably, I have not yet screwed it all up.
If you look at it exclusively from the standpoint that I am an alcoholic who has only quit drinking for about 18 hours, then it's pretty screwed up. If you look at it from the standpoint that I have many fabulous things going on in my life, despite my decades long battle with alcohol, then my life's pretty grand. I like the latter viewpoint, seems more optimistic.
My life will certainly become a wreck, though, if I don't attain and maintain sobriety. Or I'll just die, checking out too soon on a life worth keeping.
I am glad AA is working for you. I'm trying to keep an open mind about it, but I have ventured into it some before and was not finding it helpful. I'd like to look at other options for now and see how they seem to fit.