I was one of those people who thought that that if I ever did find a way to stay sober on my own, that I would never attend another AA meeting or talk to anyone about alcoholism ever again.
The strange thing is, when I did experience the 10th step promise that says:
"We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality—safe and protected"
I knew I had found exactly what I was looking for. I really don't need meetings anymore for selfish reasons, like my own sobriety. However, What I did not expect to get was a bundle of other promises that I never really wanted in the first place, like;
"We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change."
Now I feel somehow compelled to try and help other alcoholics. Maybe it is a new form of addiction. All I know is, I never wake up in the morning wishing I had not been sober the night before.