I used to tell myself that too, Paulos... I can't tell you the number of times my husband "made" me drink. Now I know that the drinking just put me on uneven footground with him... I couldn't even argue with him over whatever made me mad because I had been drinking and he'd know it and bring it up.
Now when my husband turns evil or whatever, I meet him on equal ground and tell him that whatever he did sucked... or I leave for a while. Both of these work SO much better than drinking.
Hang in there...