I am happy as a clam. I have a wonderful community and a nice home.
I think this says it all. What a wonderful image this conjurs up. Kinda like Snow White with all the woodland creatures. (I know, I know, but I'm a Disney fan. When I'm happy I think in animated scenes with talking animals.)
Now that you have found peace and contentment with some space to think, maybe it is the time to consider what would be the worth in going back to the way things were. You are happy without all your bits and pieces and without him. Maybe making the separation permanent wouldn't be as difficult as you might think.
Post some park pics!
Alice