i have stopped and started many times. i have tried controlled drinking and within time, iw am always back to the same place. my mind wants to be in one place- wasted. that is what i crave. being wasted.
i can stop, then drink about 4, then 6, then it is back to the same place. get a case of beer just in case. never run out. always buy enough to be wasted.
i even tried to only drink once a week. but still, my mind only wanted to be in one place- wasted.