Hi Abby, I think I'm about where you're at, as far as fearing an inability to quit. I have had some "bottoms"- I outdo myself a little more each time, I don't think you have to hit a bottom to want to stop but I think it's different for everyone- I have had months of sobriety in the past before I started surprising myself with uncharacteristic behavior while inebriated. It's accelerated to the point that I question whether I am capable of quitting and so I am reaching out to a support group.