Ooo yeah, sorry to continue, I know this is a lot. But I just remembered that after my first serious relationship ended I began to drink & use other substances a lot more & that's when my reoccurring regrettable decision making came into play--mainly in relationships. The dysfunctional relationships & unnecessary stress I was causing myself to go through really made me take another look & say " enoughs enough, I have to do something!" My dad was also telling me the definition of insanity probably twice annually & when I'd vent to my mom she would bring up how alcohol always seemed to bepart of the equation, but I never wanted to hear that. So, my stubbornness led me to that decision later after heartaches that could have been avoided if only I would have learned from my past& others'. I hope to never make that poor judgment again.
Okayy Okay I'm really done now
