I understand and yes maybe you are mourning your friend beer. We are so used to using alcohol to get by and then don't know how to act without it. But it's false and not the real us when we do stuff under the influence. If you stay sober, eventually you will find the energy to do a lot more, I am sure. Alcohol is a depresssant, not a stimulant. Frankly, I found that I was good for nothing when I drank and wanted to do nothing with my kids or my home. Just lay around. When I am sober, that's when I have the energy to do stuff. How long are you sober?
Hugs..........