Skope, I so know how you are feeling. I am feeling pretty devastated myself today, and for some of the same reasons. I will tell you the only thing that I think is keeping me sane is not having any contact with him. I also know how difficult that is, it has been incredibly difficult for me. But when having contact with them is only hurting us further, something has to be done about it. Perhaps you could just take a baby step back from him for now. The thing is he is probably not going to make it easy on you, you will have to find your strength, mine has come from my HP. I say this because I honestly believe with all my heart that I wouldn't be able to do this on my own, it's just too big. Know we are here for you, and that you can make it through this. You have to figure out what boundaries you need to have with him, and be realistic when setting them, because he WILL test them. Stay strong and remember you are worth it!