Great thread, and great responses. I agree with everyone that although I wish I'd done better, here I am. AND I've been given another chance. I now have alot of compassion, as Zen says, for those with addictions and mental illness. So perhaps I can use that compassion/wisdom to help someone else. I know it doesn't feel this way, but you were doing the best you could at the time. We don't know how sick we were until we get sober again.
I don't have any quick tricks, really. But I think we need to have the same compassion for ourselves that we would for another suffering alcoholic. Hugs to you, pork!