What he ^^^^ said. Just imagine for a horrible minute if the Big Book was written in high-falutin' academic language......
As to your question, try other meetings, look, or actually LISTEN a little differently at the meetings you do go to. This was my problem initially. "Man listen to these sob-stories. NO WAY am I THAT bad. etcetc
I started going to a Big Book group and changed meetings, and no-one is more stunned than me at the turn around I've undergone.
Only problem was it took 6 more years for me to see that truth....
You are not alone