I wanted to post my original thread so I can update everyone that I have held firm and tight and am now 30 days sober. Did I just type this? Seriously?
I have made night and day changes in my life and only through sobriety are my panic attacks gone, depression, etc. I am working!! Toying with restarting my grad classes and basically taking care of myself. Oh and I just volunteered yesterday. I am embracing my recovery and living my life to its fullest one day at a time.
Thank you SR for being here for me and as I continue my journey, I hope my experiences may help others as well.