Originally Posted by
Tealvertigo 
Through my addiction, I didn't even realise I was using the people I loved...but I was, because I lied all the time, would only face them when under the influence of my stimulants, and was otherwise cruel and mean to them when not under the influence.
Interesting viewpoint. By the way, I can speak from both sides of the fence, as a recovering codependent, and as a recovering addict/alcoholic.
So basically you had no qualms lying to them then?
Every time I lied, every time I begged for money to pay my bills, I knew exactly what I was doing.
I knew deep down inside what I was doing was wrong.
The guilt was so overwhelming that I would just stay loaded as much as possible to blot it out.