If it is all about motivation then I am screwed. I would do nothing ever if I didn't have to. I enjoy peace now. I like to exercise, cook, read and play with my dog. Boring, right. I honestly have no desire to charge out everyday and DO.
I did charge out everyday and do quite a bit, but I found that my resentment was so big after L left that I didn't want to do anymore. I think I am actually very selfish and just repressed it and did for others for so long that I never realized it.