Originally Posted by
kia 
i do sti11 1ove but my 1ife atm is moving so far away from him and so much nuttiness i just cant dea1 with that
You may have detached yourself physically from him, but you are still very much enmeshed with him.
You say you can't deal with it, but your actions communicate otherwise.
I know for me, I went from one relationship to the next, dragging all my prior baggage with me. It wasn't fair to me, or to the guy I was involved with at the time.
I also kept hoping the past damage would heal, but all I was doing was sweeping it under the carpet.
It took work, lots of internal work, to find recovery for myself.
If you put half as much energy into your recovery as you do hoping he'll get into recovery, you would find a whole different world.
