I have felt nothing for months now. It doesn't really bother me, it's given the wounds time to heal. If anything I feel a lot stronger now, so much stronger now, because the shroud of lies has been completely removed from my life, you actually need to be numb otherwise you would get sensory overload. Like a healing wound, it's nature's way.
All I know is I don't feel the intense lingering emotional hurt that I had even up until late last year. Thank God that is gone. Numbness? I'll take it anytime. At least I can keep buggering on.
Sure, I then went through anger and now the odd bout of contempt. The guilt is going away though.