I so agree with the other posters on this one. I forever battled guilt with my ex. I can't believe how amazing my life is now that he is gone. I swear....I didn't think I would survive, get out it and move on but watching how pathetic he was in that court room was like the closing of that chapter. My divorce was a blessing.
Almost 2 years later and I have remarried (an angel of a man), am back teaching again, living now in Germany and ohhhhhh I am sober. Talk about ridding the negative out of your life.
I remember several months after our rather bitter divorce that my ex showed up at my house at about 8am Christmas Day bearing gifts for me. I thought he had seriously lost it but I was polite....said thank you and asked him to leave.
I am proof that life goes on and can start over. I am happier now in my upper 30s then I ever was in that marriage. I refer to those years as my dark period.
All the best.