Dream.....I am sorry that you haven't found what you are looking for at this point. Keep on going with search and I am sure you will find that right fit.
For me, I needed counseling. I wasn't always a drunk but I surely needed counseling to overcome grief and loss. Sadly, I didn't because I was always that strong person who helped everyone else so why can't I fix me. The pain was overwhelming and an abusive relationship did not help it that is for sure. Instead of addressing my pain, I self-medicated and well we all know how that goes.
I had to let go of pain that I had and I shopped much like you around to counselors. Finally, I checked into mental health on base and my sessions are 100% helping me.
Point is to not give up and to find what works for you. We are all different and you have many choices. They all serve a purpose.
Wishing you well my friend.