Okay.... today, I have slept all afternoon. I cancelled work. I have called my therapist three times since two or three days ago when I felt all of this coming on. She just returned my call. I still don't feel better though and I am crying. I am upset. I cannot concentrate. My OCD brain is telling me that I am a total loser for not being able to hack it without synthetic brain chemicals and ruminating on everything that is wrong with me. It's NOT about this guy- I want that to be clear. What it IS about is this: How can people be so horribly insensitive? I often go into an OCD spiral over this. Why don't I count? Why do my feelings/thoughts/emotions/ not matter? I am not well today.