Welcome back, Dream - you sound so ready to have this craziness be over. Way to go.
Last week during my first few days of sobriety, I ate a ton. Whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Things are starting to settle down now. The paranoid thoughts/anxiety is normal right now too. I hung out here for hours on end, posting and reading, because I afraid to do anything else. It worked for me and I hope you'll be able to do that, too. I know it's hard with a family (I have two children at home myself), but we ARE recovering from an illness, and need to be as kind to ourselves (and a little selfish) as possible.
It really sounds like you're willing to do whatever it takes, and I applaud you!!