I should have known years ago that once a drinker starts talking about "control", it only mean it's
out of control. Once I took a first drink, my intention was always to get as many more as I possibly could without severe consequences. Over the years, however, the definition of "consequences" changed - I kept lowering the bar a little bit at a time. I know it will only continue or (more likely) get worse if go back. Thanks for your post and I hope you'll stick around and get the support you need. This is a great place and has helped me out tremendously.
And I agree with smacked:
The freedom is amazing..