This is a special place - glad you're here with us. Welcome.
The shame, guilt and remorse of breaking promises to myself, trying to control my drinking (never worked for me - ever) and trying to rationalize that I wasn't that bad 'cause I still had a job, home, etc. finally came to a head, almost with fatal consequences.
Support is really important. It's great that your partner is there for you. We are too. Look around the forum, someone's always here 24/7, post when you want/need to.
Great place to be.