Thanks for sharing, I can tell you have the strength to pull through all this, and the ash cloud is finally clearing (!!!) so hubby will be home soon!
What I will say to anyone who is early on in their drinking or just starting...I wish I never touched the bottle. I have lost so much, hurt so many people and have missed opportunities that I will never see again. Alcohol is the reason I am here and because of my choice to drink it is now up to me to start my life anew.
Don't dwell on the past. Perhaps use it to remind yourself to never ever drink no matter what but like you said, you have to start life anew. This isn't a bad thing. It's an extremely lucky thing and you're so lucky to have the chance!
"Unless I accept life on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and my attitudes"
Good luck!